i dont mean shit. my life is just a spec on your windshield....people who care only hurt me more....everytime they talk to me i wish i was never born more and more becuase then i wouldnt be wasting their time and breath with their lectures about how much i am a problem. i dont wanna hear this bullshit about how i got potential. just let me die off. let me fade away. my death will only affect u for three weeks tops....where would u be if i was never born...some peoples lives would be way better because i am the cause of all their problems in thier lives and its all my fault so if i would have never been born everyones lives would be way better and this shitty world would keep spinning without me.

"...this life ain't worth living..."

HEY YOU FUCKING CUNT !!! STOP FUCKING TELLING ME TO STUDY AND SHIT!!!  FUCK OFF !!! IF I ALREADY KNO HOW TO DO WHAT THE FUCK WAS ASSIGNED WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING TO KEEP BOTHERING ME ?!?!!?! I ASKED MOTHERFUCKERS FOR HELP AND THEY DONT HELP!!!! SO WHAT IF I FAIL TWO CLASSES? I WON'T BE TAKING LATIN NEXT YEAR AND I'LL JUST TAKE ALGEBRA II AGAIN......I AM SMART BUT I'M NOT AS GOOD AS YOU I'M JUST A SPOILED FUCK!!!! KILL ME MUTHERFUCKER NO ONE TOLD YOU TO HAVE A SECOND SON !!! WHY THE FUCK AM I HERE? I'M JUST A WASTE OF MONEY AND LIFE!!!! I AINT WORTH SHIT!!! FUCK ALL THE GOOD TIMES YOU HAD WITH ME THEY DONT MEAN SHIT I DONT MEAN SHIT I AM JUST A WASTE OF YOUR GOD DAMN SPERM I DONT WANNA LIVE !!! WHY THE FUCK DIDN'T MY MOM HAVE A GODDAMN MISCARRIAGE?!?!?!?! WHY DIDN'T YOU CUM ON HER FUCKING FACE OR HER MOUTH!!! WHY COULDN'T THE DOCOTOR BE A PSYCHO AND KILL ME AT THE HOSPITAL?!?!?! WHY!!!!! I PRAY AND I ONLY SEE LITTLE RESULTS BUT KNOW ONE ELSE SEES IT....EVERYTHING I DO IS BAD IN THEIR EYES......ALL MY LIFE HAS BEEN SHIT SINCE 9TH GRADE ALL I SEE IS DARKNESS AND THE LIGHT IS ARTIFICIAL!! EVERYTIME I DO SOMETHING GOOD YOU ONLY SEE THE BAD SO THEN WHY TRY AT ALL?!?!?! I HATE THIS .....FUCK IT. FUCK IT. FUCK IT. FUCK IT. FUCK IT.FUCK IT.

GOD PLEASE HELP ME THROUGH THIS...I DONT WANNA LIVE I HATE MY LIFE I FUCK EVERYONE ELSE. THEY DON'T NEED ME. JUST TAKE ME GOD. I'M NOT GOING TO DO ANYTHING WITH THE LIFE YOU HAVE GIVEN ME SO JUST TAKE IT AND LET SOMEONE ELSE HAVE A TRY!!!